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Three years ago today
i saw your face
i want to go back there
slap myself across the cheek
turn myself around
and drive back home
every ring of laughter shared
every kiss, hug, meal, love
its not worth it
this pain
knowing that we can never be
together
is the worst feeling in the world
i am forever cursed
floating on that lake
in our kayaks
i'd like to teleport to that moment
push myself into the water
and drag me back to shore
but it was too late
even then
gotta go back further
i want to go back to that room in Leonard hall
cover up my ears and sing Yankee doodle
so i never hear speak of where you are
then i'll never go
never see your face
and never know
i'm ruined forever, because of you